A couple of days ago I came across a video and article by Bob Wilkin of the Grace Evangelical Society where he says (in the article): "Dr. R. T. Kendall in his book Calvin and English Calvinism to 1649 reports that nearly to a man the great Puritan theologians lamented on their death beds that they probably were going to hell because they did not see enough evidence in their works to convince them that they had fought the good fight, finished the race, and kept the faith." After vainly searching through my copy of Kendall's book for this statement, I contacted both Wilkin and Kendall (through his ministry web site) for the reference. Wilkin hasn't gotten back to me yet but Kendall has already graciously exchanged a few emails with me. Kendall agreed that Wilkin is accurately representing him, but apologized for not being able to recall exactly where he wrote it. After a few emails I had enough clues to track down the following from his book: "Thomas Fuller says that Perkins reportedly died 'in the conflict of a troubled conscience'. This is 'no wonder', for God 'seemingly leaves his saints when they leave the world, plunging them on their death-beds in deep temptations, and casting their souls, down to hell, to rebound to higher heaven'." [Page 75] The quote from Fuller (1608-1661) comes from The Holy State (1648), but when I checked the context through copies on Google Books and the Internet Archive it appears that Fuller doubted this account. In any case, this is only one Puritan and I haven't been able to substantiate the notion that lack of deathbed assurance was a general pattern for the rest of them. Kendall informs me that the statement Wilkin refers to may have actually been cut from his doctoral thesis before it was published to meet the word limitation imposed by Oxford University Press, but I'm still searching, because Kendall is sticking by the gist of it. I am quite familiar with the furor Kendall's book created in 1979 with its contribution to the ongoing "Calvin versus the Calvinists" controversy, but nearly all my knowledge of the Reformed response to Kendall is concerning his thesis that Calvin did not teach limited atonement. I know he made a big deal about the ground of assurance in the same book, but I'm not as familiar with how Reformed writers have responded to his contention that Beza and Perkins departed from Calvin on this point, nor did I realize that one of the contentions Kendall has made was that nearly all the Puritans (Kendall preferred "experimental predestianarians") died lacking assurance. Does anyone here have more light they can throw on this?