Hello, I am in need of prayer, more than I can express in a single post. I don't know how common it is for believers to experience an incredible fight with doubt, but it is feeling neck high, like I am trying to keep my head above water as someone who can't swim. While I am constantly battling these thoughts, I am worried at the same time about losing my stability in Christ. I am terrified with the thought of leaving the God I love, as a possible reprobate in disguise, and I see nothing better to live for apart from him. Christ is everything, and I want nothing but to have him fill all in all. It was my great prayer for years to grow fervently in the faith, but it looks like I am near despair and I can't stop it. I am pleading night and day in prayer for help, and the weight seems to grow stronger, I don't even feel like eating or sleeping. Sometimes, it seems, the Lord does encourage me for a moment and then it goes. I come to read the Psalms and I am a little comforted, not much. I don't understand what is happening to me, I don't understand why I feel so close to losing everything, if indeed I am losing anything to begin with. Please pray for me, I really need it. BTW, I am not talking about doubtful thoughts of my salvation, it is secure if I am among the sheep.