Personal Narratives Thread

[a mere housewife]

I tried to search for something similar, but couldn't find anything: I was wondering how people on the board have come to Christ, and if they would be willing to share His dealings with them? I don't enjoy the seeming 'who has the most spectacular testimony of salvation'? type of discussions that this sometimes seems to degenerate into where people feel ashamed for never having done anything spectacularly wrong to be saved from (!) or never having a crisis experience, but I am encouraged to learn the different and very personal ways God has sought various people in various circumstances, either from the time they were children or when they were older, etc. I know some have shared this in their introductory post, but it's hard to search through those for who has and who hasn't.

I found a file from several years ago in which I had recorded how God saved me: I am not sure I would say everything in exactly the same way now (if there are doctrinal errors, please overlook them), but will paste it to start.


I grew up in a Christian home; but as a teenager, I turned away from God because I did not want to live for Him. I wanted to live as I saw fit. After doing this for awhile, I realized that I was too deeply flawed to make up for even one pang of trouble. I was not a worthy object to live for. But I was determined that I should not serve God. I felt that He was not worthy, either, because He foreknew and created a flawed world and then demanded perfection of it, on pain of destruction. He punished the creatures that He had made for being what He had made them. I would rather go miserably to Hell in protest at His universe than come to terms with it.
"Perfect" to me meant only that God kept His own rules. "Good" to me meant only that He did not break His own commandments. He could do this, because He was God. I could not do this, because I was not God. I saw Him only as an unbending judge and an impossible standard. I considered the standard unjust, because I could never meet it. In doing this, I was setting myself up as the judge and the standard. I thought it unfair that I should be condemned by a perfect standard: in thinking so, I condemned God by a standard that was flawed.
On these grounds, I set myself against God; and because I was blind with pride, I expected to score my one point. But in all my thoughts, I had not dealt with the reality that He does as He pleases in heaven and in earth-and who has resisted His will?
All this time, I was very miserable. I did not want to live, because I knew that living for myself was worthless: but I did not want to cause my family pain by killing myself. I finally decided that the kind of life I would lead would cause them more pain than my death. I was sitting outside, considering how to kill myself to give them least pain when God dealt with me. In an instant, I knew that I was His, to do with as He pleased. I knew that whatever He did with me would be right, because He is righteous.
In that instant I muttered, "Fine then, have your own way." It was not the prayer that it ought to have been; but I did mean it. And God, who deserves to be glorified was more humble than I, who had no right to be proud. He took my last petty protest, and gave me peace.

It was two weeks before I felt certain of what had happened to me, that I had been changed from the inside out --that I had been born again; and before I started to desire to love Christ and to know that He loved me. They were the two most peaceful weeks of my life. I did not know what would happen to me eternally, or even in the next few minutes. Perhaps God would still send me to hell for my sins. I knew that He would do what was right with me and with all things, and had no fear or turmoil. I had come to terms with my Creator --to His terms, at His call.

I am blessed because I have tasted the perfection of God, that there is no fault in Him. He is not flawed, as we are. He abides by Himself because He cannot do less. We cannot meet His perfection; and we cannot protest against it, because we are wrong. But He met it for us because He wanted to: He is perfect love.
I have tasted His goodness, that He would humble Himself to humble me.
He did create a world where there would be sin and suffering. But He entered it and suffered, and bore the sin to save it from destruction. What salvation could be hoped for from a God who could not bear to bring Himself or His creation to the cross?
I give Him glory, Who alone is worthy.

[VirginiaHuguenot]

God's effectual calling in your life
Were you born Reformed or converted?
Becoming Reformed
Have you been in a cult before you got converterted by the Gospel ?
What Scripture Did The HS Use To Regenerate You?
Any on the PB who come from non-Christian upbring?
So When Did You Become a Calvinist?
I was saved twice!
How Were You Led to Christ?

[blhowes]

Here's a copy/paste of my testimony found in this thread from May of 2007.

After being confirmed at the Methodist church in 9th grade, I was at a church service a week or so later reciting the Apostle's creed with everybody else, when it dawned on me that I didn't believe the words I was saying. As I said the words, "I believe in God the Father almighty", I realized I didn't even believe in God. I stopped reciting after that phrase, and just stood there. I couldn't continue saying something I didn't believe.

Shortly after that, since I was confirmed, my mom took me aside and told me that it was up to me whether to continue going to church or not. I'm not sure why she gave me that option, but realizing more and more that I was an athiest and that I believed all about Christianity was a myth, I stopped attending church. I told myself that I'd never go back again...but, God had other plans.

God used several people as instruments to draw me to himself, mostly some people who lived on my dorm floor when I was a freshman at college. Drinking never filled the void I was trying to fill, so when I went to college I decided not to drink anymore, but continued to look for meaninig in life. As an athiest, the one question that kept gnawing at me was what is the purpose for me being here? It made no sense to me to live for 70 years or so, and then die. What's the point? Is that all there is to life?

I got into TM for a while, looking for peace within. It brought peace (physical), but still there was a restlessness inside and I continued to ask those 'purpose questions'.

It seemed like there were only two types of people on my dorm floor, the partiers and the 'Jesus freaks'. I tried at first to avoid both groups, but several of the Christians befriended me after a while and began to challenge my beliefs, or lack thereof. One fellow in particular would use every opportunity to focus my attention on Jesus and scriptures. He didn't talk about religion, but seemed to always be asking me, "So, what do you think about Jesus and what he said?"

God used his faithful witness, and the witness of others, to bring me to the point where I could do business with God. I ended up using the scriptures in the 4 Spiritual Laws pamphlet when God drew me to himself. I've mentioned it before, but it still amazes me how God saved me. Up until the time I repented and sought God's forgiveness, I still didn't believe He existed. Immediately after my sin was forgiven, God became so real to me I thought I should kick myself for having waited so long. Praise the Lord for His goodness and His grace to this poor, wretched sinner!

I'm usually not an emotional person, but thinking of God's goodness to me in drawing me to himself brings me to tears, as He once again fulfills Psalm 51:12 in my life.

Psa 51:12 Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation;

[a mere housewife]

Andrew, thank you for posting those links: I am reading through the first thread now -- strongly recommend it by the way (some of the testimonies go into more detail than others).

Up until the time I repented and sought God's forgiveness, I still didn't believe He existed. Immediately after my sin was forgiven, God became so real to me I thought I should kick myself for having waited so long. Praise the Lord for His goodness and His grace to this poor, wretched sinner!

Bob, it is amazing how God comes in and changes things so that we know it is Him. Thank you very much for reposting this.

[Semper Fidelis]

Originally Posted by VirginiaHuguenot

God's effectual calling in your life
Were you born Reformed or converted?
Becoming Reformed
Have you been in a cult before you got converterted by the Gospel ?
What Scripture Did The HS Use To Regenerate You?
Any on the PB who come from non-Christian upbring?
So When Did You Become a Calvinist?
I was saved twice!
How Were You Led to Christ?

Dude! You totally creep me out that you're able to produce information like this.

We need to have some sort of contest to see if anyone can actually stump The Librarian (A perfect Mystery Men super hero power by the way).

[Joshua]

Reformers, Puritans, and a Geek » About Me (if you must)

To this day, I am a wretched man plagued with unrighteousness and inconsistency. I find myself battling with myself. I find my heart devising ways to indulge in wickedness. I find my mind too easily distracted from the things of God. But you know what? I’m so thankful to be in a position which leaves me able to recognize these things. You see, it’s understood that the closer we, as finite, sinful men, grow to our Lord, the more we grow sensitive to the ungodly things about ourselves.

My interaction with God has been for as long as I can remember. You see, even if men have no exposure to the Gospel, Romans 1:20 says this (my emphasis added):

For his invisible attributes, namely, his eternal power and divine nature, have been clearly percieved, ever since the creation of the world, in the things that have been made. So they are without excuse.

But God, in His providence, made sure that I was exposed to the Gospel for all of my life. I remember going to “Sunday School” from the earliest age. Reading about Moses in his basket, floating down the river. Joseph gettin’ thrown into a pit, and then later sold as a slave. And, of course, Ole’ Joshua breakin’ down the walls of Jericho. All of these things were placed in my heart, though they meant nothing other than good stories at the time of their absorption into my mind.

I remember watching “Where the Red Fern Grows” when I was 8 or 9 and not really understanding it too well. I think that somewhere in the movie, the little boy is praying to God and asks God to help in some form or fashion…in a miraculous way, etc. At least, this is how I remember it. Anyway, after the movie was over I remember going outside to play in the woods. It must have been wintertime, because I recall having gloves on and probably a warm hat. To give an example of my “interaction” with God, I remember being amongst the trees and asking God to make a tree shake. What a silly boy. I distinctly remember saying at one point, “God, if you’re real then please, Lord, PLEASE make this tree shake.” I kid you not.

But you see, the crazy thing is this: I knew God was real, and yet I didn’t know God. Sure, I’d been to Sunday School all of my life, I even could sing those hymns nicely, all by heart. But I was not converted per se. So, for me to try to get a sign from God was really futile, when I already knew He was real. Funny thing is, just months later (Thursday, June 16th, 1988) I was brought to the end of myself by the light of God’s glorious Gospel and I broke under His conviction and was freed from the dominion of sin. Do you want to hear the Irony now? I’m a Calvinist now, but I was converted at this little Freewill (literally, the name of the denomination) Baptist church. Yep, God saves Whom He wants, when He wants to do so.

After converting at the age of 9 I recall a sincere, though misguided, desire to evangelize all of my friends. I even baptized (invalidly so) a friend in a creek out in the woods behind his house. Like I said, “misguided”. Upon conversion, I still had no idea of anything concerning the great need for discipleship and Bible study, etc. In fact, when I submitted to the Lord, the church gave me a treatise that dealt with Free Will Baptist doctrine. Yep. Like a 9 yr old was gonna read that right up. So here I was, a young Christian, and still full of great immaturity both spiritually and practically speaking. I was the good kid at school up until about 7th or 8th grade. After that, though, I began partaking in different forms of ungodliness, whether it be “cussing”, smoking, etc., I was certainly not exhibiting the changing and saving grace of God in my life. I did as I pleased, until…

…one morning of the summer between 9th and 10th grades. I was sitting in Sunday School, as I had done for years, bored out of my mind, wondering what I’d be having for lunch. I was flipping through my Bible, paying no attention to the subject matter of the teacher, when BAM! Mark 8:38 completely shrunk me to the lowest point possible. Why, as a Christian, was I ashamed to speak of Christ (and this, I mean, by my actions)…would He not, in turn, be ashamed of me? It was an earthshaking thought. The Lord was pleased to break me that day. I began to heavily consume the Scriptures, reading for hours upon hours at a time (How convicting, considering it’s been a while I’ve spent that much time in the Word of God during a single sitting).

Years passed. I was known as the “religious” guy on campus. It’s funny, though. I was a 4 point Arminian but never quite understood the passive god other folks seemed to talk about. I don’t know how I missed the whole sovereignty concept, but I loved the book of Isaiah. Throughout the whole book God brags on Himself. “I am God, there is no other. I am God, there is none like me. I declare the end from the beginning. I form light. I create darkness. I bring calamity. I, the Lord, do all these things.” So even though I was foolish to believe that God didn’t choose some over others before the foundation of the world, I didn’t believe in a pansy god who was in need of something from humans.

I once talked with my friend, Ace, and told him, “You know, it’s pretty simple to be able to expose the errors of Mormons, Jehovah’s Witness, Charismatics, etc., but the one group I have the most difficult time refuting are those Calvinists.” Ha ha ha! For good reason, ya idiot….they’re Biblical! At some point in High School I had happened along John MacArthur’s book called The Charismatics. Sadly enough, this was the closest thing to scholarly I’d ever read of a theological nature. I loved it. I loved the way this man wrote. Anyway, time moved along and set me on my journey to the Reformed Faith.

After getting a taste of MacArthur in his book about Charismaticism, I purchased his study Bible. As I read through his study notes I grew increasingly frustrated that he would not explain away certain passages of Scripture that seemed to be contrary to what I had been taught growing up. Passages such as John 6, 8, 10, 17; Ephesians 1, 2, and so on. Instead, MacArthur would simply regurgitate what the text already (so clearly) said. So I continued to read. I realized, “This man is one of those Calvinists!” I was thoroughly disappointed! I had finally found an author that skipped all the non-theological/biblical fluff only to find that he was a heretic. I was surprised, however, to see an evangelistic tract (to speak so) which encouraged men to repent of sin toward God.

I kept reading through the Scriptures and it was finally the sixth chapter of John’s Gospel that was the death knell to my Arminianism. I remember (laughably) lying on the floor in my living room, crying, thinking I had fallen to false teaching. However, within just a short time I realized that the Doctrines of Grace (affectionately called) were part and parcel to the Gospel. Since that time, I’ve dropped Dispensationalism (with little help from Johnny Mac who still clings tenaciously thereunto). There are other theological positions to which I’ve Reformed, but perhaps those will be discussed in the future.

I am thankful for the Gospel of Grace. But I am most thankful for the Triune God Who has made provision for such a Gospel. And this He did before the foundation of the world. God the Father elected a people for Himself. God the Son, Jesus, made secure the redemption of His elect. And God the Holy Spirit woos the elect through the Gospel of Grace. Blessed be the name of the Lord!
I want to leave with you a quote from C.H. Spurgeon:

I am never ashamed to avow myself a Calvinist; I do not hesitate to take the name of Baptist; but if I am asked what is my creed, I reply, ‘It is Jesus Christ.’

If anyone should ask me what I mean by a Calvinist, I should reply, ‘He is one who says, Salvation is of the Lord.’ I cannot find in Scripture any other doctrine than this. It is the essence of the Bible. ‘He only is my rock and my salvation.’ Tell me anything contrary to this truth, and it will be a heresy; tell me a heresy, and I shall find its essence here, that it has departed from this great, this fundamental, this rock-truth, ‘God is my rock and my salvation.’ What is the heresy of Rome, but the addition of something to the perfect merits of Jesus Christ—the bringing in of the works of the flesh, to assist in our justification? And what is the heresy of Arminianism but the addition of something to the work of the Redeemer?…I have my own private opinion that there is no such thing as preaching Christ and Him crucified, unless we preach what nowadays is called Calvinism. It is a nickname to call it Calvinism; Calvinism is the gospel, and nothing else.

I hope that my meager words have been a testimony to God’s grace toward sinners.

[a mere housewife]

Josh, thanks much for that link: I really loved reading about how God dealt with you as a child and then to bring you to the doctrines of grace.

Your reaction to the doctrines of grace reminds me of what Traci said in one of the threads Andrew linked to:

So When Did You Become a Calvinist?

Driving down Colby Ave. in my car listening to RC Sproul. I was shocked to hear for the first time about predestination. I was shocked but at the same time I new it was true, it must have been the Holy Spirit testifing to me inwardly because I did NOT want to believe it was true. I struggled with it for a long time trying half heartedly to disprove it but that knowledge that it was true just wouldn't leave. I went home and read Romans 9 and was re-shocked. Cried myself to sleep several nights. I had been so secure and sure of my faith and knowledge of God up until then. It was the most important thing in my life and now the rug had been pulled out from under me. I had no one to talk to about it because I was deeply involved with an arminian pentacostal church that I had gone to since I was 8yrs old. ALL of my friends and family were arminian and thought I was nuts when I did try to talk about it. So I shut up for about 8 yrs only shocking people occasionally when it came up. I couldn't pray right for a while because I didn't know how to pray to God anymore because He wasn't who I thought He was. I didn't know how to approach this Sovereign almighty God. I was humbled and trembling. And it took years to finally see the doctrines of grace as the comfort and blessing that they truly are. It took even longer for my husband and I to come to agreement that we need to leave our church where we were both baptized and married. Than even longer to sift through which reformed church to go to we were both completely ignorant of any other denoms than our own. Now we are so happy!!! We love our church we are spiritually fed every Sunday and so blessed.

[danmpem]

My testimony is really my whole life, and it is very difficult to put into words. If you want to know more about my testimony, read the Bible.

[etexas]

In the 90's I was in my "APT" smoking some reef (serious.) I was bored and picked up a Bible an Aunt gave me, started reading ACTS, I was SO dumb I did not know the Apostles did much after Jesus went back to Heaven. I could not put it down! I read all weekend! Before going back to work for my Uncle that weekend I tossed my stash. Carried my Bible to work and kept reading there. The Holy Spirit did a NUMBER on my heart. When I went home I knelt down and prayed. I knew something was different. I did not have a name for it then, but now I know, Regeneration! (sorry for those who have heard my boring "Damascus Road" experience.) but that is pretty much how it happened for me. Grace and Peace.

[caddy]

Originally Posted by Semper Fidelis

Dude! You totally creep me out that you're able to produce information like this.

We need to have some sort of contest to see if anyone can actually stump The Librarian (A perfect Mystery Men super hero power by the way).

VirginiaHancock !

[a mere housewife]

Originally Posted by danmpem

My testimony is really my whole life, and it is very difficult to put into words. If you want to know more about my testimony, read the Bible.

Dan did you then grow up in repentance and faith, simply believing what you understood of the gospel? My sister's life has been like that. It is wonderful to consider how she has always been conscious of God in believing faith.

[danmpem]

Originally Posted by a mere housewife

Dan did you then grow up in repentance and faith, simply believing what you understood of the gospel?

I wish.

If I were to share my life, my words would not do God's work justice. When I read God's Word, there are so many things that happened long ago that show me what it is he is doing in my life. I'm not one who likes spiritualizing verses in the Bible, but there are also things that are undeniably parallel to what is happening in my life now (mostly because the OT passages are foreshadows of Christ's work and the NT ones are testimony of it).


Just a couple of examples:

Ephesians 2:1-9
And you were dead in the trespasses and sins in which you once walked, following the course of this world, following the prince of the power of the air, the spirit that is now at work in the sons of disobedience— among whom we all once lived in the passions of our flesh, carrying out the desires of the body and the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, like the rest of mankind. But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ— by grace you have been saved— and raised us up with him and seated us with him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, so that in the coming ages he might show the immeasurable riches of his grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus. For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast.

John 4:27-29
Just then his disciples came back. They marveled that he was talking with a woman, but no one said, "What do you seek?" or, "Why are you talking with her?" So the woman left her water jar and went away into town and said to the people, "Come, see a man who told me all that I ever did. Can this be the Christ?"

I would put Ezekiel 16 up here, but I don't have the time to weed through and get all the verse #'s and superscripts out. I really need to learn how to post scripture on here the right way.

[jambo]

As a child I frequently "asked the Lord into my heart". This was not necessarily from any sense of conviction but rather because I did not want to go to hell. As a child I had a superstitious form of religion in that I believed if anything bad happened to me such as falling of my bike, then this was God punishing me for doing soemthing wrong. So I prayed and went to church not so much to worship but so I wouldn't get knocked down by a bus.

As a teen I went through a form of rebellion, not outwardly but within the heart. At the same time I was trying to think of something I could do to impress God so much that he would not send me to hell. My problem was I could not think of anything that would impress God this much.

It was only by reading the scriptures I learnt of the grace of God and the full sufficiency of Christ's work.

"Behold the Lamb of God that takes away the sin of the world" (Jn 1.29) Could that possibly include my sin? And if it did then did that mean my sin has been taken away, removed, gone?

"You shall give him the name Jesus for he shall save his people from their sin." (Mt 1.21) I noticed it was he shall save: did that mean that Jesus has actually saved me? Could Jesus be trusted? The Holy Spirit helped me to realise yes he has saved his people and yes he can be trusted.

Around this time the words of a chorus kept coming to me. I think the chorus was Complete in Him

There's nothing more than we can do for he has done it all...

...Its not by works of righteousness but by his grace alone

I also realised that one embraces Christ not so much to avoid hell but in recognition of his person and work.

Ever since I have grown in the grace and knowledge through the reading of the scriptures, daily communion and union with Christ and seeking to live the with the help of the Holy Spirit a consistent Christian life. As a young Christian,then a theological student, a missionary and now an elder I never cease to marvel at the Lord's providential dealings with me and my family.

The biggest marvel however is why the Lord should ever have chosen me in the first place.

[Ivan]

Here are a couple of links where I give a testimony:

http://www.puritanboard.com/364018-post47.html
http://www.puritanboard.com/201411-post29.html

I don't have the time right now (nor the energy). Hopefully I'll have time soon to give a full testimony. It's really a good idea to do this. If nothing else, we are blessed all over again remember what are dear LORD and Savior did for us and it's a blessing to hear how others were saved.

[Hippo]

I do not think that testimony should be in any way an evangelistic tool, it is not in itself the gospel and all too often it substitutes for and detracts from the Gospel.

Having said that it sure is edifying to hear testimony from brothers and sisters.

[danmpem]

Originally Posted by Hippo

I do not think that testimony should be in any way an evangelistic tool, it is not in itself the gospel and all too often it substitutes for and detracts from the Gospel.

Having said that it sure is edifying to hear testimony from brothers and sisters.

In 1 Peter 3:15, Peter tells the believers to be ready "to make a defense to anyone who asks you for a reason for the hope that is in you". I'm wondering where the two meet - giving someone the gospel and give someone an account for the hope that is in me.

[a mere housewife]

it sure is edifying to hear testimony from brothers and sisters.

I agree, Mike.

Dan, I think we are actually enjoined in the Psalms to recount God's deliverances of us? Doing so comes naturally to someone who has been delivered, and often provides an opening for sharing the gospel. I can't often work up the nerve (and I don't know that it's necessarily appropriate) to point blank say to someone 'Christ died for the ungodly'. But if they ask me a question about my life, I can tell them what God has done for me, and that has in the past led into the most open opportunities I've had of being able to share truths of Scripture.