The Elect
Hi guys I thought it would be about time I finally express my concerns and confusions about the "elect" Forgive me if some of this isn't explained clearly, because it has to deal with my emotions, misgivings, and stuff of that nature. This thread isn't to debate it because I'm certain that it is correct, but this does not take away my concerns rather it just fuels the panic filled fire within me.
I cannot go into very much detail but when I first fell away at a young age I explored almost anything I could get my hands on to fill a void I had. I went from Christianity to paganism over, and over, and over again. I have finally stopped with the whole paganism thing, and stuck with Christianity. I of course learned as much CRUD I could find (I call it crud because that's what it is...absolute horse ****) this didn't help me. I went to non-trinitarian to Catholicism to Lutheranism, to Episcopalian. Whatever bible doctrine you could think of I was there (most man made tho) Lets just say however that I now know why knowledge is dangerous, because with all the "information" on why there is no trinity why there is why Jesus was not the son of God and why he actually IS my looking into Communion and all the rubish I filled my head with has DESTROYED me. My faith it would seem is absolutely non-existent. I struggle a lot, and you have no idea how much I so dearly wish that the Arminian's where correct (but to my dread they aren't)
As some of you have read before I struggle with a constant nagging doubt of all my motives and all my beliefs. Motives being I struggle with the idea that I actually believe (the doubt tends to be "josh you just SAY you believe...but in your heart you really could care less) its with that ONE main doubt that I torment myself over. I am absolutely tortured by my mind, and have no comfort. So as you can guess, I am very worried about this whole elect thing.
My concerns are how am I suppose to know I am elect? if none of this is my decision, then how do I become Christian in the first place? surely I don't wake up one morning magically transformed into a Christian? with doubts of belief come doubts of election, and frankly I have no idea what to do. I need this whole doctrine of election and grace explained to me like you would a 7 year old kid, and I really need it. People always try to explain it to me but it just boggles my mind. Please anyone willing to try to calm my panic and explain this to me in the most simplest terms (yet detailed) I would be so grateful.
Joshua
Non-Denominational
Fair Haven, Vermont
24 O wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? 25 I thank God—through Jesus Christ our Lord!
So then, with the mind I myself serve the law of God, but with the flesh the law of sin. - Romans 7:24-25
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