A Gift Neglected

A Gift Neglected

I suppose I should have known better
Hoping that gift which was lost would return
Now my hopes are torn asunder
Another lesson both lived and learned

It has been claimed, and now I must agree
One knows not the gift he has 'til it's gone
And now, do trust me, for I see
While in this circumstance alone

In my human frailty, finiteness, and sin
I failed to act with wisdom and grace
Instead of clarity, confusion set in
And I turned away my face

Tis better to have loved and lost
Than never to love at all, they say
But this pain looms icy, like frost on the heart
These memories, they will not fade!

This gift was like no other I've known
Unique in most every sense
I found myself most undeserving
And, yet, I erected a fence

This division was most absurd
As if I had lost my sanity
To neglect this gift so precious and sweet
Was the utmost height of vanity!

I abused an unmerited favor
And now I must pay the price
For this foolishness I am humbled
And have no comfort but Christ

Thus, I do cling to God's Promise
Though in angst I regret my ways
Of neglecting this gift, so very dear
Hence, driving it away

But the Lord, in His kindness and mercy,
Will use even my sin and my faults
And take my most foolish of actions
And use them to purge the dross

Though now I weep in anguish, Lord
I nonetheless trust only in Thee
For Thou alone can make the crooked straight
And cause the blind to see

I thank Thee, O Lord, for Thy mercies
Which are renewed despite my sin
And I thank Thee for Thy comfort
That will allow me joy again

The Lord gives. The Lord takes away. Blessed be the Name of the Lord.