Nikki, you are pretty much exactly where I was at about three years ago (though graduating from high school—I had just stumbled across the Puritans etc. and was converted around that time). Do you mind if I send you a PM instead of responding here, since this is an open forum and I don't care to share personal details with whoever searches for my name on Google?

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Laura
attending Old Peachtree PCA, GA

"...Christ comes to meet the despairing with new aid, who not only regenerates us by his Spirit that we may obey God, but makes also that our endeavor, such as it is, should obtain the praise of perfect righteousness." - Calvin