It's so difficult sometimes to discern what it is God specifically wants me to do with my personal life. But i've been thinking about going to seminary for theological studies. Of course I have no intentions of becoming some femi-nazi pastor of a church, however, my heart is so moved to learn and study systematic reformed theology. I have so many questions and trains of thoughts that sometimes lead me into mental gynmastics, but sometimes I feel so inadequate in answering those in opposition to the reformed view. I mean sure I can quote my surface knowledge of scriptures that demonstrate the accuracy of the reformed view. And of course for any christian scripture should be sufficient. But I want to go much more deeper into scripture than that, especially when i'm challenged further on the issue.
I feel i need some sort of formal discipline and teaching from those more knowledgeable and wiser than I. I do not have a husband to teach me such things in an in-depth way, and learning these things on my own is so challenging..So i've been thinking.. should I consider going for a Masters in Theology at a reformed seminary? Is it a bit taboo for a woman to be grazing the seminarian grounds?
This question comes at a time when my quarter life-crises seems to continually creep around in my mind. It just seems like there so many different avenues and possibilities, opportunities for sucess and failures.. and I'll admit i'm a little nervous about it. I know there is only but one sure path that God has already set out before me.. I just wish I knew what it was.
So.. a penny for your thoughts? or maybe two?
Thanks guys
