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Thanks for posting that quote again Kevin! My short reply was in jest trying to laugh at some of our debates we have here as you eluded to when you referenced EP and baptism, etc.
Do you want to know what I think the problem is? This may offend some here, but I think the problem is the Church body. It's been my experience (for the most part) that even when a local body has one, two, or maybe even three members who have this conviction they are seen as the "weirdo's" of the flock.
I waste as much or more time than anyone, but during the phases of my walk where I have been on fire and sought to separate myself further and further from the world I've found it to be too lonely of a place to be! Now that may sound like a poor excuse, but I’m sorry, if I can find no one to walk with me down such a difficult path, the chances of remaining in it are slim.
I pray to God often that I could find a group of believers who would meet daily! I would so much prefer that to watching TV or going to the movies. Sadly, I can never, ever find this group! Everyone is too busy. The issue with the Presbyterian Church that I’ve run into is that they don’t want to call an “official” service too often because this causes members to feel “bound” to attend. My old evangelical church was open nearly every day with bible studies, family gatherings, etc. So often I would go there to fellowship, study the word, and pray together rather than going out on the town of turning on a TV show. On the few days that the church was not open, members’ homes were in order to meet over coffee and an open bible. I miss that very, very badly. I work a job where Church members would have to come to me. I work in a LARGE home with plenty of space and I bet some of our kids might even get involved but I couldn’t get anyone interested. In fact, the few studies we had were far from weekly and were often rescheduled. When we had them there might be four or five people that attended!
I suppose all of this sounds like I am blaming others for me not walking as I desire to walk, but I thought that was what a Church was for? I mean didn’t Christ even have a few that he could normally rely on? I love my brothers and sisters but when I press hard to press on harder I feel rather alone in that call/request. Often I just give up and hope to do what I can.
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