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Old 02-18-2007, 05:50 PM
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Originally Posted by BlackCalvinist View Post
Hey Scott,

Completely off topic, but I'm guessing your Free Church is reformed ?

KJG
Yes, they teach and believe in the WCF. Our pastor is going to start to take the men's group through Calvin's Institutes starting in March!!

Friends,

I am probably suffing from my own self-centered fears. I find it hard to trust people because I am afraid of being hurt. The betrayal of my spouse (christian?) has done it's number on me. Through self examination I see that this fear(s) I believe has started to control my life. I do know that God doesn't give the spirit of fear. I do not want to end up making the same mistake again, it is obvious to me that my discernment was and might be still lacking, it seems that I at times have "selective hearing, selective seeing" I hear what I want to hear and I see what I want to see in somebody. This form of self deception is what I am on the look out for. It isn't fun being decieved, I want to know what is real, or who is real?? I am not interested in being a paranoid person either. I just want to know how to trust the "right" kind of people. Just because these people are sitting in the church that I attend doesn't necessarily mean that they are trustworthy people. I am involved in a small group of guys from the church and I do trust these men. It is amazing to me to find out that after getting "burned" how difficult it is to trust again, I know and realize that to some extact everyone is a hypocrite, I am quicker to guard my heart today, but is guarding my heart just my own "self-centered fears". I do not know who to trust, relationships are built on trust, and when I do not trust then there really isn't a relationship/friendship.
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Sioux Falls, SD

Better is the sin which humbles me, than that duty which makes me proud.
Thomas Watson